Friday, February 16, 2007
a glimpsed passed huh.
its a never ending debate. about whether passion can really give you what you want. i believe that passion is a key factor and therein lies the problem. whether the passion is real or not, makes a world of difference. sometimes, you catch the passion from another person, sometimes you feel it for a moment before it dies out. for my part, even if it sounds ugly, i must say something.
i am sure there are tonnes of people who still can make it with their band even with outside commitments such as in this case - national service. i guess it just show how little commitment i have towards stuff, that when it drags long enough i tend to just let go. its not an excuse, i'm describing it as it is. when we started out, i was excited and happy, seriously. even though i am not a person who likes to perform in front of others, i thought it will be fine since i'll be with my friends. since we'll be doing something we all thought we liked.
i admit that the failure of this is not as big a blow to me as it should be. on the contrary, for the past months its been a very sticky problem. on one side there's the friendship involved which makes it hard for me to voice out what i feel. on the other hand, i really dont want to drag on anymore becasue it's something thats turning very unpleasant.
understand this, yi shen. that when i say i give up on the band, i do not give up on our friendship. to say that this will not make a dent in our friendship is naive, downright foolish. however, i feel that after what we have shared, the good times and the problems we have ... even the silly jokes we made, that our bond should be strong enough.

alson
by ~me~ at 11:39 AM ©

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