Monday, April 28, 2008
so many exciting things happening that are worthy of talking about. not that much attention is paid to this blog anymore but yeah. wanted to express my opinions about certain matters like the mas selamat report and it's public backlash which the straits times has 'failed' to pick up and also like the 'chinese vs others' standoff.

but, due to certain circumstances, i decided to let it go. haha. partly the reason was that i was bogged down, troubled by problems ravaging my immortal soul. increasingly i find it hard to ignore the unneccessary and yet insistent calling towards the need for spiritual fulfilment. yet, how can i reconcile with the entity i have been at odds with for these years. how should i go about seeking clarity and maybe, salvation.

went to st andrew's cathedral with yi sheng last night. not an altogether good experience. but at least i was not feeling that unnatural surge of hatred and bitterness. skeptism. disbelief. but no, nothing extreme. had a great time being pensieve and reflective while we walked around dhoby ghaut/city hall area after having a chat at the cathedral and at coffee bean.

i must say, there are big rocks like birthday bashes etc that fills my life. but the little pebbles and seemingly insignificant grains that fill the gaps are also as important. not to be looked down at. haha, just as my almost daily routine of meeting isaac for coffee at ksl.

i think we've reached an impasse. prob reached it some time ago but things were left simmering all along. things have changed. we've changed. to imagine something like in american pie 2 is naive but it would be quite the perfect thing. what do we do with our friendship ? our 'clique' ? especially when school starts. and we're supposedly going to different places. what will remain ?

i hope this does not sound like another lamentation. i'm sorry if it sounds like one, did not meant for it to be this way.

alson
by ~me~ at 5:54 AM ©

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