Tuesday, May 06, 2008
On the corner of main street
Just trying to keep it in line
You say you wanna move on and you say I'm falling behind

Can you read my mind
Can you read my mind

I never really gave up on breaking out of this two-star town
I got the green light
I got a little fight
I'm gonna turn this thing around

Can you read my mind
Can you read my mind

The good old days
The honest man
The restless heart
The promised land
A subtle kiss that no one sees
A broken wrist and a big trapeze

Oh well
I don't mind if you don't mind 'cause I don't shine if you don't shine
Before you go can you read my mind

It’s funny how you just break down waiting on some sign
I pull up to the front of your driveway with magic soaking my spine

Can you read my mind
Can you read my mind

The teenage queen
The loaded gun
The drop dead dream
The chosen one
A southern drawl
A world unseen
A city wall and a trampoline

Oh well
I don't mind if you don't mind 'cause I don't shine if you don't shine
Before you jump tell me what you find when you read my mind

Slipping in my faith until I fall
He never returned that call
Woman
Open the door
Don't let it stay
I wanna breathe that fire again

She said
I don't mind if you don't mind 'cause I don't shine if you don't shine

Put your back on me
Put your back on me
Put your back on me

The stars are blazing like rebel diamonds cut out of the sun
Can you read my mind


"Read my mind", The Killers
by ~me~ at 10:26 PM ©

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alright. i'm capulating on this temporary emotional overdrive to say something. haha. just finished watching 'water boys 2'. despite the fact that i know some (which means isaac) will tease me about it, i must say i love this kinda high school dramas alot. so what if it isnt something classy or complicated. sigh. but everytime i watch this genre, i feel inspired and yet sad at the same time. something seemingly simple but deeply meaningful and thought provoking.

went out of my office for a smoke. and i was thinking 'hey, those japanese producers got it right'. THIS IS LIFE. scurrying about our lives, burdening ourselves with so many things we 'need' to do is fine. but it must ultimately serve the purpose of fulfilling our dreams etc. i bemoan the fact that our generation and after has been continuously taught to do things for the sake of doing it. have we lost our soul to the rapidly developing world ? have we lost precious time enjoying life in our so called 'pursuit of happiness' ?

how can a million or even a billion dollars earned ever compare to being together with a girl you deeply love ? or to the love you share between your closest friends ? or even to spending time watching the television at home with your family.

i remember telling yi shen. i believe that everyday will be spectacular. how can it be otherwise ? we're living our lives. we're enjoying precious moments every minute that cannot be brought back - isnt it even more precious ?

watching dramas is sorta an espcapism thingy for me. sometimes i really wish life could be as simple as that. reality is, unfortunately, otherwise. but so what ? just being able to feel alive is such great pleasure. i will never have enough of it. i'm so in lust for life. how may i ever give this up ?

we have crossed into our twenties. how long more is it when we start reminiscing the time we were this young. let our fires not be doused. we shall not be contained. there can never be any compromise in living our lives. let us take it by the balls and never look back in regret. let the world be torched by our presence.

alson
by ~me~ at 3:24 AM ©

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Monday, May 05, 2008
blog is such a wonderful thing. for those with no time, forgo this post. needed to unwind.

MOTHER FUCKING CHEE BYE.
a bitch called in, my colleague answered. she started screwing him and then wanted to speak to another person. happily i was the only other bugger ard. oh my god. i cant believe this bitch. wanted a fucking 24hr clinic in holland. so we checked thoroughly and there's not one listed. then she started bitching bout how she's an expat and she can get us into shit with one touch of her finger. how she wanted to sue me. how if she's gonna die, it'll get us into trouble. she ended off with asking for my name, and said she'll get me sacked. haha. whatever. my colleague and i were just dumbfounded at how stupid and utterly rude she was la. it's godsdamn 3 am in the morning. i'm trying to do the best i can, if i dont have any listed within the area, i'm trying to give her the next best choices. and even i am trying to maintain the so-fake-and-sweet voice.

you want to feel powerful threatening me ?! you dare, bitch. one day, i swear if i find out who you are, i'll tear you apart. i wont even scream or rage at you. i'll smile into your face while i twist the knife in your guts, then in your heart.

ok. chill-ded. sometimes i cant believe the shit we have to put through. but at least it thought me to be alot more tolerant of idiotic people.

alson
by ~me~ at 3:29 AM ©

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